#17

Well hello and Merry Christmas Eve :)

so I just scarved down a freakin' pizza slice, while 30 secs ago i was just having the mentality that I was going to lose weight..

ugh im so pissed maybe ill write another time

#16

Hmm.. so where did I leave off last time?

I think i'm roaming with the dinos tonight..whateva that means.

So, I thought it'd be a GREAT idea to shave my eyebrows almost off.. until I actually did it and it was too late to turn back.. dummy.

I dyed my hurr RED.. looks like red velveet cake bahah mmm.

I thinkk today in general is a bad day for LOVE (RS)
I wonder if my ex will come to the NYE'S party, I kinda don't care if he does or not, he proabaly thinks i'll cry or something..
No need for that, i'llbe drinkin' like there's a message in a bottle ;)

Have you done LSD or shrooms? I haven't.
Before I used to think that I would do it, but now I don't know.. Maybe shrooms but not a lot.. like what.. half an 1/8? LMAO I ain't even pretending that I know this shit.
But YOU should tell me how it isss :))

Where are my manners? My elephant, Roids says HI.

LOL.

I'm listening to The Black Keys, reminds me of thee good days.. Their new album is pretty rad though, i've been underwear dancing to it.

KK it's 10:36 PM and idkkkk if i'ma go to my bros place or what the fuhh

KEEP PEACE STILL~

#15

Hey thurrrr...

yesterday was Thanksgiving.. so gobble gobble!

Okay well, Nebraska DID NOT work out for me, my sister is a crazy biznatch and that's the end of that bahah.

So if you must know I love with my mom (again) I'm working on my way out!

Whoever reads this should buy me a car :) ha NAWT.

Anyway, really nothing to blog about...... My ex and i have been texting and stuff, I'm pretty happy about that.. he's still with his crazy gf though, he's thee love of my life... in a weird way.

Who wants to be my mexican boyfriend.. I want a vato ;)))

#14

Hello world, how have you been?

me?i always think i coulbe be better but i just came to stop by and write that i'm moving to Nebraska in two days!!

Yes, my flight leaves LAX at 5:30 pm and i shall arrive there at 10:30

wish me luck!

#13

Hello friends and non-readers alike..

My mind is clear and i'm somewhat happier again.

Almost back to my old self and it feels nice.

So no luck on selling my car yet,, PMA!!

The other night i had a date with this one boy, he was really cool, his name is David, we got a motel room and partied like rock stars, while i dont know what really changed how we felt about each other but I haven't heard from him since, oddly enough, I don't reaally mind. PROMISE :)

So, now shit is getting real with me moving I still need to inform the rest of family though, I confided in my sister-in-law and she's sad..awe. i'll miss all my family ya know but sometimes you just need to man up and figure out things for yourself thats the only way you grow and learn :)

I'm also writing a book, my best guy friend Jesse inspired me.. it's called.. wait.. I can't ruin it for you soo soon.

I miss my elephant.

oh yeahh i'm nawt pregnant!! that was a HUGE relief.

Well, until next time.

RAHH RAHH LIKE A DUNGEON DRAGON!

I lost count

January 27,2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR..

AGAIN I am pre-tryping this due to no wifi..

Aya.. So Oct 5th was my last post not like any of you read this, anyway more of a therapy for me.

Hmm so my best friend and I no longer talk..
I guess...

I dont know, reading back on my last posts I seemed happier but now I feel stuck I am jobless and somewhhat hopeless, getting high is no longer fun for me as well, well I have no money to enjoy it anyway.

I dont know these last couple of months I have learned alot about life and i'm still learning about the curroptnesss in this world//

Lord Jesus please help me.. I feel depressed again and have anxiety like a mother fucker,all the time it seems. It could be cause i moved back in with my mom..
I cant find any real happiness anywhere and its horrible.
I think im pregnant too, which would be my fault for being brainless in my lustful acts, Abortion would defintley be an option but I dont know how I would be able to live with myslef if i made that choice..
I smoke cigarettes now... gross I know.

The only thing I can look fowrad to is when my sister comes to California and i go back with her to Nebraska to see if i would move there but what would the rest of my family think? I dont know either, but i feel that it would be a good thing to get cultured and travel im still young you know and i want to live my life to the fullest.

I came up with a saying or motto whatever you prefer really, and this is, ALWAYS BE YOURSELF BUT BE THE GOOD PART OF YOURSELF.
I see the world and the kids my age who all have the attitude of "fuck this imma live my life and fuck god etc etc.." it's sad and stupid, i feel like the only one left sometimes with morals,doesn't mean i think i am better than anyone cause im not, but i still like to believe that there is hope for my genration.



That felt kinda good to let that all out.


Like right now i just yelled at my lil sister but fuck dude... i need friends and all that, i've gotten fat.. yuck.

Bikini season is near and it's time to workkout y'all.
Maybe i'll go to Ridgecrest tomorrow with my mom, just to get out and climb that old mountain I love.
Maybe i'll walk there bahaha NOT!

So,how's your day going? Better than mine I hope.

I would really love to go back to my writing again that's the only thing I loved and can remember being good at.. doing research and shit :)

It should be fun editing this post cause of all my typos.
Pshhh don't judge.. chdfkjvkeghv

KK.. well i'm out like a dawwg.

PEACEE